Monday, January 19, 2009

I know im cheezy, but bear with me....

I am officially the biggest baby ever. Tom has been gone since Sunday morning, (He's safe at Greg's house now) and I am a total wreck. His hours for work before meant we only had 8pm-8am together...and tuesdays and sundays off. I knew it was going to be difficult for me, but I am really having a hard time with this. He used to be just down the road, so I could stop in and see him anytime I wanted. I planned on just going to bed early from now so I couldn't be sad awake--but that's not working out so well. I was lying in bed around 8:30 and all the sudden I got this very sad song stuck in my head. I used to really love the band SheDaisy. I let my friend borrow the cd, and haven't seen it in years--but all the sudden it came to me..perfect timing.
Please, humor me--I know I'm being pathetic. Wives of military don't see their husbands for months-years and have the stress that their husband's may not even make it home....and I will soon be reunited with Tom (37 days)
I am just very aware of my weakness and neediness...I am not one of those "Independent Women" Beyonce sings about...I need my hubber!!!

"Come Home Soon"

I put away the groceries
And I take my daily bread
I dream of your arms around me
As I tuck the kids in bed

I don't know what you're doin'
And I don't know where you are
But I look up at that great big sky
And I hope you're wishin' on that same
bright star

I wonder, I pray

And I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it's so hard livin' here on my own
So please, come home soon
(Come home soon)

I know that we're together
Even though we're far apart
And I'll wear our lucky penny 'round my neck
Pressed to my heart

I wonder, I pray

I still imagine your touch
It's beautiful missing something that much
But sometimes love needs a fighting chance
So I'll wait my turn until it's our turn to dance

I wonder, I pray

I sleep alone
I cry alone
Without you this house is not a home
So please, come home soon

I walk alone
I try alone
I'll wait for you, don't want to die alone
So please, come home soon

Come home soon
Come home soon

Sad, sappy...thats me...and its not the pregnancy hormones, I'm just a mush-ball missing my perfect partner.
And we don't even get to watch the inauguration together.
I really didn't want to ever feel this depressed feeling again...and I thought I would never have to having such a great husband and growing family....but I am so sad. So if I look like a blurry-eyed grump, you'll know why.

On a happier note, my sister-in-law devon is celebrating her birthday today--
Happy Birthday!!!

Isn't she beautiful!!?



Thanks Kelly for the Birthday wishes!!! I'm sorry Tom's away for a while. That's never fun. Keep yourself busy. Luv ya!